Powerless and having no legs to stand with might be the appropriate expression that best describes how I feel now, having no courage or solid base to appologize for what occured on the unforgettable day, just 7 months following the terrible sickness. The blunder I made by sending you off out of my embrace forever has made me a fool, who lives the life without the three letters of the magic power. I should have made my unspoken confession that could have released the living memory. I remain unchanged, being the great pretender for the sake of the apples of my eyes. It is he who can keep me struggling for being a smiling daddy. It was just like yesterday when I pronounced my promise, "Latif, I swear I will do everything to make you happy." It is also she the only one who can kill my curiousity to get what I want to get. Everything becomes real when you say my name. Suddenly I am falling into an unconcious world where everything seems beautiful and filled with never-ending joys. My ritual action is kissing on the three parts of their face: forehead, left and right cheek. The prince and the princess.
I am frequently startled when logging into my fb account. Without being controlled, I automatically type your name, the essence of beauty. Feeling a bit better as soon as your smiling beatious complexion appears. I fall for you forever.
February 15, 2011
